VOICES

NOTE: 11:20pm Monday, December 15, 2014 

My life seems all frustrated and edgy and I don’t know how to go forward. This am so sure of; I can’t go back, I know too much now to go back to the comforts of what another can provide for me. I feel like I was in a nest and now am all fighting to get out and walk towards Gods purpose for me. 

Truth is I can’t seem to understand a lot of things right now, but I know I don’t have any excuse to stay where I am or go backwards. I need to stretch out on God’s word for me. I need to press on and forget those things that are behind. I have stayed here long enough and although am trying and it seems nothing is changing I know God is watching and guiding me towards his ordained purpose for my life. There is more to me.

There is something inside me fighting to come out. I want to be used by GOD. I desire to do his will above mine. I may be struggling now but am getting there. I may be needy and edgy but am going to get stronger, bolder and satisfied. My story is going to change. I may not be there yet but am half way and I am going to keep trying.  

Hey! right now you are trying to come out of what you don’t understand. It hurts; it has cut you and will cut you. You will bleed but you should remember that there is a crack in everything cos that’s how the light gets in. the cut is bringing my light into you. The change and growth hurts but it is worth it… don’t die in fear or excuses or limited perspective. There is a place for you. You use to be in a place where your ideas are below your potentials. Am taking you into a place where what is in you is coming out and what I have placed in you is about to make the world marvel at the authenticity of my creation. 

You are mine. I, God, made you. I formed you to function as an entity, a nation and a woman whose heart pants and bleeds for others just like I do.I love you and you are only trying to get a glimpse of this love right now. Am taking you to a place where you would come to an almost full understanding of my love for you. And when you get to the place of this understanding, then you have gotten to the place of putting out a feet by faith to accomplishing whatever your dare to imagine you can do with your life for my glory.

I believe in tomorrow because God is already in it… (Thoughts of a bruised heart)